A good day

Today is going ok. I am finding it easier to wait until I am hungry now, but my hungry signal is still very subtle. I had a lovely prawn stirfry tonight with spring onions, courgettes, tatsoi & mooli. I've never had mooli before but it was similar to waterchestnuts. I don't feel quite so pulled towards the kitchen as I used to. Sometimes I think "Ooh I could just eat", but then I tune in and realise I am not really hungry at all and then I check to see how I'm feeling and as usual it's often loneliness or boredom.

Today is the first day of the six week holidays that I have been home alone with both children. It has been a bit of a mish-mash of a day today and both of them were being a handful so I think I am going to structure the days a bit more from tomorrow, for my sanity as much as theirs!

I am still reading "Fat, So?" by Susannah Jowitt. It's quite funny but it is very fact based rather than really having any new ideas or anything. Still, it is interesting to read about the histories of the diets and about how complex the weight/health/activity balance can be.

It's hard to believe that in five days time we will have been living in our new house for a month! And I still haven't changed my gym membership. I will try and do that tonight, and I will try and find my mp3 player as well. I need to start getting some decent sleep as well now that I have to be up so early for the children. My anti-depressants make me so tired. Four hours after taking them I can't keep my eyes open and they keep me extremely drowsy for twelve hours. I take them at night but if I forget to take them til after 8pm it's makes for a really hard morning.

The food shopping arrived last night, and my efforts to keep the biscuit tin filled seem to have gone a bit crazy. The biscuit tin is full and I have a further three packets in the cupboard! I think chocolate supplies are dropping, I have about two bars in total. The crisps just aren't getting eaten at all. I'm finding it hard to get excited about food at the moment which is half relief but also half frustation.

Oh, but I did somehow manage to forget to buy any fruit! Goodness knows how. I have been really enjoying fruit lately. I think I will pick some up from the market on Thursday instead.