I've taken a few steps forward over the last few days, but tonight I took a step back by eating past my full signal. I know why, it's because I've been subconciously restricting my food intake and I feel a little deprived, which is silly because I knew before I even ate that I would end up feeling horrible.
Still, positive thinking, every step is another towards letting go of the diet mentality. I am trying to quietly observe myself, and now I just need to figure out how to deal with wanting to overeat even when the other half of my brain is begging me not to do it.
I've been quite tiredly lately and my depression is taking a turn for the worse. Actually, having written all this down I can see that I haven't done all that bad at all, juggling everything on my plate plus learning to eat intuitively.
Ooh, I also have put my name down for a tai-chi class in September (when the new course starts), and I am trying to find a belly dancing class close to me too. I am really pleased about this, as they are both things I have been putting off "until I am slim", but BC has helped me see that I don't need to wait. You don't need to be slim to do it, so I'm not wasting any more time.
I think I'll get off to bed now as I am almost falling asleep, and a tired mummy with a three year old and a poorly 8 month old is not a good combination.
Night :)
Tuesday, 10 July 2007
One step back
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Hi Nicola,
Re the depression - have you gone to the docs about it? Just wondered if it could be postnatal depression? Of course, you'll know more about this than me but it might be worth getting some help rather than suffering in silence. It must be hard to have 2 little ones.
Glad you're going to try bellydancing and tai chi. Let us know how you get on. And please tell me what tai chi is like, I've been meaning to try it for a while.
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